Life can be a roller coaster, and no one knows that better than me. (Well, that’s probably not true, but I digress.) I graduated in 2011 with a BA in English Lit – and went on to work as a dog trainer and vet tech, using exactly none of my skills while I graciously accepted my post-college underemployment. I then went for a BS in Nursing, and dropped out after realizing what I wanted in life didn’t quite get along with working overnights and spending my shifts documenting for hours.
So, now in my late 20s, I’m still trying to figure out what I want in life. Ultimately, I desire the time to write and pursue my other hobby – power lifting. There’s a dream in me where my hobbies somehow become what I live off of, but we’ll see if that ever takes shape!
As the content of my blog indicates, my personal life has been a mess for a long time, starting with child abuse and neglect. When you start your life being told you’re not good enough, or being scared of how the people you love respond to you, your trajectory as you age and navigate the real world diverges from the experiences of so many others. My hope is that people realize that there’s sometimes a deeply embedded reason for people to suffer from depression, eating disorders, and more – and that even individuals who are perceived as intelligent, “having it together,” etc., are burdened in ways that are often invisible. Similarly, I hope what I write resonates with women and men who are in similar situations, or have had similar emotional responses to hardship.
While most of my content is a little depressing in nature, this is one of the happiest points in my life. So please keep in mind, if you currently feel like life will not get better, seeking help is hard but one of the best things you can do for yourself. Recovery is possible. And you deserve to love yourself.